Insecurities can lead to depression and anxiety. They can debilitate you, oppress you, and imprison you. BUT…
they don’t have to.
Therefore, let us draw near with confidence to the throne of grace, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help in time of need.
I want to start by sharing a bit of my story and struggle with insecurity. Growing up I was known as the “talker” of the family. Coming from a very large, loud, and talkative family, the fact that I was the “talker” was saying something. I know deep down no one really meant to hurt my feelings, but when every story ever told about you involves not getting a word in edgewise or how I never shut up, it really hurts. I began to allow this insecurity to take root in my heart. I began to try to talk less, to not talk at all. I remember going to school one day and promising myself that I wouldn’t talk all day, not one word. My goal was to become the shy quiet girl in the back of the room that everyone thought was so cute and innocent. This was against my natural personality, but worth the “reward” or what I thought was the reward. When I would slip up and say something I was devastated and so disappointed in myself. I began to feel like a failure and that started a whole new insecurity. It began to snowball from there. I always felt left out, like no one wanted to be around me because of how much I talked or how loud I was. I felt unloved and unworthy. I began to wonder why? Why was I like this? Why can’t I fix this?
My focus suddenly shifted from who God said I was to who the enemy said I was not. I began to think selfishly. My focus was on myself, on my faults and failures, and not on Christ. I allowed the lies of the enemy to box in my true identity.
Set your minds on things that are above, not on things that are on earth.
When I finally began to put my identity in Christ I began to realize the Truth. Through family, pastors, and leaders at our home church, God began to reveal to me that being a talker wasn’t a bad thing. It was actually a gift that he had given me. He wanted me to share with the world his great love. He wanted me to speak to others, to use my voice on his behalf. We all have different gifts that allow us to fulfill the purpose that God intended. The very gift that God gave me was pushed down and twisted into a bad thing because I believed a lie.
Definition of insecurity – uncertainty or anxiety about oneself; lack of confidence.
Spiritual definition – Lies from the enemy; lack of confidence in God.
God made us in his image. He made us with perfection. He took his time on us. He made us for a purpose that only we can fulfill. Only YOU can do YOU perfectly.
For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well. My frame was not hidden from you, when I was being made in secret, intricately woven in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw my unformed substance; in your book were written, every one of them, the days that were formed for me, when as yet there was none of them.
When we allow insecurity into our lives, we are doubting who God really is and how good God really is. God doesn’t make mistakes. If we question ourselves than we are questioning our maker.
A potter spends countless hours creating a masterpiece. Only he knows what it is and defines it. He defines it as a vase. A masterpiece in his eyes. Every detail, curve, and color were exactly as he planned, yet no one will value this masterpiece as much as the potter. When others see a crack, the potter sees the line that took him hours to make absolutely perfect. When others say “it won’t fit” the potter says “I have the perfect place”. When others say it’s not a vase, he has already placed the flowers in it.
With God we are the vase and he is the potter. He spent countless hours perfecting our every curve, and wrinkle. He created us for the perfect place and time. Only God knows our true value and we are worth so much more that what others say. You have to ask the potter to show you your price tag. Pray that God allows you to see yourself through his eyes.
For every lie the enemy speaks there is the Truth of God to counteract it. Identify these lies/insecurities in your life and find the scripture that speaks truth to the lie (there will be one). You just may find your calling in the midst of the insecurities. Do not allow the enemy to oppress you out of your calling.